Is your birth name the name that's "yours"?

once upon a time i hated my birth name so much i thought i would change it to Donna.
only cause my birth name was the kinda name that confuffled people.
they would ask me how to spell it
teachers
they would speak it back to me completely wrong
Denise? Bernadette? Beatrice?

i would get hot under the collar and repeat myself and spell it out
b e r n i c e

it wasn't until just recently that i fell inlove with my birth name
as i read it now, a gentle reminder to
be nice
i know i drop the r, because it's a grumpy letter and is no where to be seen when nice is BEing ;)

as it happens i also found azyh as a name that owns me.
representing my spiritual journey and light energy.

that of coming home to all that i am
giving and receiving
connecting and harmonizing my core self to my core light
welcoming every fragmented part, every shadow and all that i thought i wasn't
allowing what i disregarded to find the place that is my core self.