open your heart
beyond what you see

open your mind
to find the key

right at the start
behind you and me

are we there yet?

learning to own myself
forgive myself
love myself

know myself?
i would rather surprise myself

see I would say
I can do this differently
I can be more loving now

watch me show myself
how loving I choose to become...

stretch slowly
feel the time drops bead and pool
breath one last kiss
yawn

open my eyes
and see the ever lasting

feel it through and through
like a vacuum

suspended

when are you going to just relax for once?
we are here
we are happily doing it
simply and easily
just go do your thing and let us support you
we don't need you to micro manage us
your just angry about not having time for you
so stop
stop it already
and go
leave us to love you
and support you
we will be here for you always
we are not going anywhere
now let us be here
and let yourself go
let yourself do your thing

we don't need to fight about it
we don't need to be forced
we want to support you
we want to love
let us do it
our own way

how can you open to love and support
if all you allow yourself is suffering and pain?
let us love you
let us support you
let us do it
our own way

free yourself from the need to control
you wont know it is loving until you allow it in
you wont know it is supporting until you allow it in
open up and allow it in

we are feeling stressed
only because you control us and fight our natural states
open up and allow us to support and love you
our own way

god, the universe and everything

time and time again i have been reminded that what i choose for myself is crumbs compared to what the universe would give me

i don't know what i am doing
or how i am going to do anything

i don't need to stress myself into knots about the fact that i am limited

i am a limited being
in a limited world
and i don't know what is going on

all i know
is to show up
be present
be loving
share all i am

and rest is already sorted

i reach out to my community to transend my limits
and my community is a loving support
an extention of the loving support i choose to give

xx azyh

how would our lives be different?

wow

i love this question

i would wake up in the morning and feel the living around me awaken
hear the songs of morning be sang
communicate with the morning

i would breathe in the energy of life
and give myself to the day

here i am day
i am here for you

what shall we dance?
what shall we create?
where will I find the resources?

I will listen
I will hear
I will ask
I will seek clarity

i will feel connected
i will feel loved
i will feel supported

our world will be a harmony of interaction
where everything supports anything with love
consideration is given to all
equallity of existance is given to all
insticntivly we will know what to give and be open to receive

where love feels like healing
and healing feels like harmony
and harmony is natural as breathing

the simplicity of allowing the flow to carry us
means to never fight, ignore or resist
the simplicity of inner peace
is to be alert to what is living
to notice the most amazing moments
to be present
grateful
appreciative

to breathe in the world
and to breathe out of our confines

to extend into the details
of exquisiteness

simple

god i need plenty help

help me to understand and heal
me, bout love lost
and gone away

why i feel like i got to hold something
or wait for something?

my girls
they need their father

why he not brave enough to parent them?
help me understand god

help me stop fighting
help me find the love in this

help me reserect this relationship so all can heal and know your love

beginning to feel like i am no longer flowing my way
no longer fighting the gravity, or pulls, the twists or turns
no longer worried about the ending
where it may be
or what it may look like
just knowing that showing up is all that i need to do

being and showing my girls the best I can be

just seems like the natural thing to do

showing up and being present with them

enjoying our now moments together

learning to be a parent for them and for myself

to me, this is life, this is living, this is what it's all about